I am weak.
Some days I look at my future and it seems dark and bleak. There are so many unknowns… and I feel like I can’t keep going. When I walk into Evee’s room and see that toys aren’t strewn across the floor…my heart breaks. Everything is too neat. When I make my bed every morning my heart breaks…it’s too perfect. A messy room and unkempt covers meant I had my happy four year old playing in her room and Ryan asleep next to me…
Now life is different.
It’s hard adjusting to my ‘new’ normal…
I keep hearing…
“You’ll eventually adjust to your ‘new’ normal…”
Yet nothing seems normal about my life. Nothing is the same.
On Sunday we had a lesson about the gift of God’s grace. To be honest…I’ve never really understood grace. It’s kind of been an abstract concept for me to understand …until recently…and oh how I need grace…
What is grace?
If someone were to ask you this question would you be able to respond? I think if someone were to have asked me this question a year ago…I wouldn’t have been able to answer. Yet today…now…this very second…grace has an impact on my life. I need God’s grace…
Each time I feel alone or like I can’t continue onward…yet somehow I’m able to…that’s grace.
Every time my heart is burdened down with grief and I feel like I can’t take another breath…but somehow I’m able to…that’s grace.
Each time I make a mistake and feel like there’s no way it can be repaired…but somehow I’m able to make amends…that’s grace.
When my patience seems long passed gone…yet somehow I’m able to continue in longsuffering…that’s grace.
Grace is the enabling power of Christ’s atonement that lifts us and strengthens us. Through Christ’s atonement we can be forgiven of our wrongs, lifted from our sorrows…and ultimately become as He is…we can have what God has…and we can have eternal life and exhalation! Holy Cow…isn’t that AMAZING!?
Have you ever watched cookies bake in the oven?
I’ve watched cookies bake…and often times I desperately wonder how they will be done in the specified cook time. To me… they look like balls of gooey dough with no form or shape even after baking for several minutes…yet when that timer sounds…those once ‘goo’ like balls of dough…resemble perfectly baked… round shaped cookies!
Many times we resemble those gooey…misshapen… balls of dough. We look at our lives and see no direction. We may feel like we’re nothing or maybe that we’re completely alone. But through our life experiences…through adversity…through trials…through joy…through grace…we become that perfectly delicious cookie. However, in order to be that yummy cookie we still need the right ingredients…we have to do our part…work hard…love passionately…study….and serve.
I may be weak…but through Christ…through the gift of grace…I can be made strong. We have such great potential. Sometimes we may not see it, but we all have a divine heritage. I know that one day we will be those divine individuals God knows we can become. Have faith…be believing…and Christ will help weak things (us) become strong….and know…. sometimes it’s ok to be weak.