“Can I run Grandpa?” Evee eagerly asks my Dad…Grandpa Gleaves.
“Of course you can,” Grandpa smiles in reply.
“Tag you’re it Kaya,” Evee shouts as she tags Kaya’s arm, then starts running.
Kaya takes off after her with a big smile on her face.
“I’ll get you Evee!” Kaya giggles.
Meanwhile Ryan and I lay side by side with, our hands clasped together, on our backs… faces to the sky… watching as it slowly gets darker and darker. My heart is so full of love and gratitude for my sweet little family. Heavenly Father has been oh so good to us…even if some days I don’t deserve His matchless love.
Soon the stars are twinkling bright in the vast, open Liberty sky. A light breeze begins to blow. Kaya and Evee happily play with sparklers until the fireworks begin. I love watching their happy faces. Life is good and I take a moment to enjoy the little things…
I hold Kaya tight in my arms as we stare up at the beautiful colors before our eyes. We marvel at the brightness of each firework. Kaya comments on each one…telling me what she likes and doesn’t.
“I like the extra sparkly ones,” Kaya says cheerfully.
“Me too,” I reply “They remind me of pixie dust.”
“I wonder what watching fireworks from heaven must be like,” I wonder out loud…thinking of Ryan and Evee…my heart aches desperately for them tonight.
“It’s probably kind of scary,” Kayas says in a matter of fact way, “They would be way too close!”
I laugh at her response and am reminded of just how lucky I am to have her snuggled up on my lap. Even though I miss Ryan and Evee immensely tonight… My heart swells with love and gratitude for my sweet little family. Heavenly Father has been oh so good to us…even if some days I don’t deserve His matchless love.
Life may be hard but at this moment life is good and I take a moment to enjoy the little things…
This afternoon I’ve had some quiet time to reflect and ponder…and miss the little things…
I miss having Evee be my little buddy while Kaya is gone playing with a friend.
I miss her sweet laugh and sense of humor.
I miss eating popsicles on the front porch together in our swimsuits and towels.
I miss eating chips and salsa on the couch downstairs while watching our favorite movies.
I miss little messes of crayons and paper on the kitchen table.
I miss stepping on plastic dinosaurs while walking down the hall.
I miss Evee’s sweet kisses.
I miss Evee.
I miss the little things.
I miss coming home to Ryan asleep on the couch.
I miss his loud music playing all throughout the house.
I miss Ryan’s smile and laugh.
I miss sharing a large chocolate Oreo Shake with him.
I miss his hugs and touch…his hand in mine as we swing on the porch swing together.
I miss sitting on the tailgate of the truck after a bike ride in the mountains.
I miss Ryan.
I miss the little things.
If there is one thing I’ve learned over the last year…it’s to not take the little things for granted. Enjoy flour spilled all over the floor when making chocolate chip cookies. Laugh at paint dribbled on the Kitchen table during an art project. Cracked egg messes and stained shirts all enrich this journey we call life. Enjoy the happy noises that fill your home…both the quiet and loud ones…the giggles and the quiet sounds of a sleeping child. Be glad you get to fall asleep in a cramped crib next to your little one. It’s ok to laugh at your mistakes and or cry when life is hard. Life is meant to be experienced in every way. Cherish every special moment you can…because you never know when those little things will become sweet…but distant memories.
We all do or will experience trials, hardships, and setbacks and I hope that through those hard things we can take a moment to enjoy the little things. I know God’s hand is in the details of our lives. He loves us no matter what…even when we feel undeserving of His love. I know Heavenly Father wants us to be happy and find joy in this life…and it’s by and through the little things that we find true joy!
Here’s a taste of some of the little things in my life…